Hey guys,
You know sometimes in life you make a decision, where no one agrees with you. But its one step you have to take for a better future. Its so easy to view the situation from the surface, and grind and chop at what ever you can see. Right now, my situation is deeper than any one of you can ever imagine. Sure, you can side her. i have no problems with that. Sure you can call me a jerk, i have no problem with that either. Sure you can curse at me, and pummel me with criticism, it doesn't bother me. What bothers me, is that for one moment, you don't even try to put an ounce of understanding from my part.
I moved on. I didn't betray anybody. If you have a situation, or a problem with me, talk to me. Gossip and slander doesn't help. For that one special person that told every one the bad news, and told it so i look bad. Thank you. Not only have you determined to make me feel lousy, you have also revealed the true nature of friendship. Which side are you gonna take? It seriously doesn't matter. I thought that love existed, even when things don't seem right. I thought wrong. You see, it isn't easy to handle a break up. Nor is it easy to have the people hate you. I'm human after all. just cause I'm a guy, doesn't mean you have the right to tell me off.
Look. i don't hate you guys one bit. i love you guys. I'm not the man you think i am. However you may want to look at me, I'm fine. i can deal with it. But is it fair to me? To diss me in your blogs, to talk trash about me amongst your selves, to gossip about me as a conversation piece. i have been in the church for 2 years. I always looked up to your abilities, and spurred you on to greater heights. What have you done for me?
I'm disappointed at how this was handled. How news of this event spread around. How people complain to one another about me being a selfish ass hole or a screwed up person. Or how i am a big jerk, or how you can "understand" The fact is, you don't. You don't understand me. And for a while, try to think how i might feel before putting stuff down on your blogs, and how you always tell me you "understand"
MATTHEW 18:15-20
FUNNY THING IS THAT THE PERSON THAT UNDERSTANDS ME MOST, DOESN'T BELIEVE IN GOD
