Singapore

My nephews are leaving for Singapore tomorrow. Its kinda sad and kinda exciting.
Im gonna miss having hem around here, but its going to be a new surrounding for them all over again. Its pure excitment of going back and meeting your family and friends again.
I'm anticipating when i get back to Singapore. But at the same time, i dont want to leave this place behind. I have Army to "look forward" to... and a new life to live, and i have to grow up more.
When i was at hotel room, my nephew Alex was talking with his friends. One of these friends used to be his girl friend. They were just hanging out like old times. But when i saw her, her eyes were red from crying... i knew that she cant bear to let him go.
There are some people i cant bear to let go of, and the goodbyes will be sad. You never know whens the next time you'll see them again. Sure there is IM and Skype... but there is a need for a physicall attatchment. Well, i know now how i will feel when i head back to singapore. Its going to be a really sad night for me, and then a really happy morning.

See you later Max and Alex, have a safe trip. And ill come visit you soon!

Pumpkins and Chocolate

Whoo! This week is half days. At least I can get a minor break from school.
I think im suffering from senioritis: the condition of slacking as a senior. I just wanna get out of here. Of course, i have to do well first, graduate then get out. Its beginning to get really hot. Today it reached 90 degrees F. Not the right temperature for fall...damn

Halloween, i dressed in orange. Nothing special in that, but who cares. My cousin dressed up as a fat man, he had bubble wrap around his body. And he trick or treated with a tray full of chicken nuggets. hahaha. Then after trick or treating, we went to the movies to see Paranormal Activity. It was THE most scary movie i've ever seen. So freaky...

Im done with the senior project... but i think i've done something wrong with it.

Now Im in a whole new world with you.

Yesterday night was one of the best nights in the world.
3 weeks of practicing the duet song, has led to one of the best vocals of my life.
Rachel Hubly and I sang out duet song: A Whole New World, and Donggi played the piano... and what'da you know... I was the closing the closing act =)

We sang, and sang our hearts our. And after, soaked the applause from the audience. Been there, done that.

HAUNTED CORN MAZE

AHHHH!!! I've been blog raped! ... but curiously, i like it. =)
Well, yesterday was soo awesome. I went to Buckelew Farm with my cousins. We bought tickets for the haunted corn maze and the regular corn maze.

Haunted Corn Maze
So we entered. THe entrance was one of the scary parts. We were stuck in a dark room, and all around us people the walls were making creaking and scratchy noises...after 5 mins of intense darkness the door opened were we were greated by a werewolf that scared my aunt.haha. It was open field so as were walked, i could see the night sky. I was in front, so lead the group. The haunted corn maze had a series of mini haunted "houses", the was a: revolving wagon, optical illusion bridge, completely dark maze, stobr lights with hanging pigs and dead clowns, evil clowns chasing after us with a chain saw, a room filled with air bags and a low ceiling so we had to crawl and squeeze. So in the end, after 25 mins of screaming my lungs out, and breaking a cold sweat, we entered the actual corn maze.

Corn Maze
We were all given a map to find the way out of the maze. We looped and swirled around the maze for 30 mins before we became frustrated and finally decided to try to find out bearings. It took us another hour to find the way out. It was actually the worst... confusion of finding yourself at the same spot each time. I felt like i was in a horror movie, repeating the same scene over and over again. It came to a point where my cousin and I picked up some corn stalks and attatched our torchlights to them to make it look like light sabers, and we fought... and ohh did we fight welll.

Today is Isaac's 3rd birthday party, his actual birthday is on tuesday. Happy Birthday little brother =)

Sup bro.

Lol, don't mind me invading your blog for a bit. But we all in Singapore miss you man. (: And hope you are doing well in US. Oh yea, and this is gonna be posted so you better take it down and replace it with a new post. Hahah, Halloween is coming up soon. Do dress up and take pictures. No excuses!

Cheers bro!
LeRoY

(This was all just for fun. (: I still remember!!! OMG!!!! I am amazing. XD)

NIGHTFALL

Its 4 am in the morning.
I just got back from Nightfall! Its October and close to halloween, so we celebrate.
I went to Old Tucson with my aunt, uncle and cousins. Paid to enter, and so there it was, the theme park of horror. Except there were no rides, but 3 haunted houses and 3 shows. It was kinda cool to walk around the park, being greeting by ghouls and zombies. =) People were screaming every where, young girls, big girls, small boys, big boys...

My favorite part of the theme park was the Old Mine haunted house. It had a special part in the haunted house where there was a rotating wheel and a bridge. When I stepped onto the bridge, i felt like my entire body was spinning around and around. Ultimate high, haha. It was so fun, we went back to do it again.

The shows were cool. One of the shows we watched was the hypnosis. The "master" pulled volunteers up onto the stage and slowly began to hypnotize them, and the participating crow also. The hypnosis method was to relax the people. That part, was no hypnosis, it was a form of stress reliever, which i did partake of and felt the tension released from my body. It was great! =) After the shinanigans...boring part.... he commanded the volunteers to do crazy stuff. He made them all believe tissue paper were $100 bills, and told them to hide them in their shirts and pants! Its was hilarious. He could command a lady to pretend she was Pamela Anderson and another guy a shoe thief that literally stole other people's shoes on stage. The show was funny, but I dont think i fully believe in hypnosis. In my opinion and a fair others, the people on stage were acting out and just being a fool on stage to gain attention. I dont know, but it seems a little phony to me. Well, maybe just because im skeptical about such things. The truth is, a person can only become hynotized if he/she allow themselves to be.

So after all that fun, and a whole lot of pictures we went to IHOP for pancakes and headed home. I'm sorry I ditched Marina! But sometimes plans just dont work out as it is, maybe next week.

Joy Ride

Hey guys,
Rather than some random shorts post of my life, I'm gonna make a random long post of my life. :)

Well, summer has gone and autumn is in, and it feels so darn good! Its cold in the mornings, just nice in the afternoon for a good read on the hammock, and cold again at night. To me, its the perfect condition for living. The leaves are turning red, some of them any ways. People are taking walks now. Its just simply beautiful.

Yesterday was the start of a week of fall break. I don't have much to do actually. Just sit around at home, read, do homework and play wii. Yesterday I did hang out with friends though. Went to the movies to watch Couples' Retreat with Riley and Marina. The movie was funny, but meant more for couples than just an ordinary comedy you catch with friends. I felt like i was sitting through a couples confession and therapy session at times. But over all it was good, maybe a 3 out of 5.

After the movie we went to Devan's house and then went to Riley's house to play some B-ball. Devan decided to give us all a "joy" ride in his car. He took off down the neighborhood at 60mph and did doughnuts and almost ran into cars, scared the crap out of me. :/ I'm not looking forward to riding with Devan anytime soon again haha.

I just got done with a really good book by Mitch Albom. This author is probably one of the more genius authors you will ever get to see in this lifetime, because of his simple ideas that make people think deep. Any ways, I read: For One More Day. And its basically about a torn out baseball player who became a salesman. He has a broken family where his relationship with his mom and daughter has become almost entirely ruined. He attempts to commit suicide one night and finds himself in his old hometown and meets his dead mother. His mother teaches him about things he never knew, like the simple sacrifices she made for him. Like, becoming a house cleaner to get him through college (where he quit), kicking the dad out of the house to protect him and his sister, and simple acts that most of us forget. He learns also about a dark family secret, that his father had another family when he was still married to his mother. The years he had hated his mother for chasing his dad away had been revealed, and he seeks forgiveness. During the time he meets his mother, every thing in real life was happening in slow motion, as if time had stopped. He comes to consciousness, and years after that reconciles the love that he has lost because of forgiveness.

I think its a pretty amazing book. In under 200 pages, he had managed to tap into my consciousness. His other books are pretty amazing too. :)

So how's life everybody? Its good to know we're all still breathing, but what happens between breaths? You tell me :)

Sing Away

Today we performed.
It was a good feeling to perform in front of a crowd. The choir sang well, we all sang well.
All the men dressed in the tuxedoes and ladies in their dresses. It was good effort for a month that finally paid off today.

Pain is 90% in the mind

So yesterday something happened.
I was on the diving board and i slipped and fell off the board. Not only did i fall off, but i also cut my shin (leg) open. It wasn't painful or anything, just the shock of getting out of the water and looking at my leg. It was all white around the cut and you could see the bone... AWESOME!
SO i went to the hospital, and here comes the worst part. The doctor injected some stuff into my wound. The most pain I've felt in my life, right there in those 30 seconds. Needle into the wound, not good. And then she started to wash and then stitch up.

I think I've learned a valuable lesson from this: Always wipe the board before a dive, cause its slippery. And look into medicine, because its a rewarding job.

Summary

This whole week was spirit week, so people had to dress up in certain clothes to show their school spirit. Yesterday, i dressed up as a spartan.
I went to school in a towel as a cape, homemade armor and a head band. After pep assemble, all the guys who dressed up like Spartans went to the bridge to block the lower class men from going to their classes. It was epic! Haha, just like the movie 300. We held on to the bridge with a whole lot of pushing a shoving and shields being destroyed, it was pretty fun although i got injured in the field of battle. Some person stepped on my foot.

At choir, we played sushi tag. Its a game where the is an outer circle of people, and each person has a partner who sits in front of them, its kinda like an outer circle and an inner circle. only one person doesn't have a partner. He/she has to call out 2 people sitting in the inner circle, and the 2 people have to run over to touch his/her hand. However, the catch is, their partner has to do whatever it takes to hold on to them and not let them go. If a partner loses his partner, he has to call 2 people.. so on a so forth. I got some serious rug burn and bruises from wrestling.

We got new people for dive whoo! 4 people to be exact. =)
After dive practice, Tim and I went to the watch the homecoming game... and the football team lost. WHO LOSES THEIR HOME COMIN GAME?!? embarrassment to the max.
I got a ride with Ryan, and going out of school, some truck rear ended the car, and Ryan got whip lash. "Best" part was... the truck drove away... hit-and-run anybody?

So today i woke up at 530 to drive to school at 630. The dive team took the bus with the swim team down to the UofA to attend the Speedo/Nike invitational. I've gotta say, i dove pretty OK. And the judges are sooo corrupt, or maybe they need glasses or something. They didn't call bulks, they gave 0's to divers who certainly did their dives. The judges were Pheonix coaches, so they pretty much gave more points to their team. If a diver from Tucson dived the same dive as the Phoenix diver and with the same form, the Phoenix diver would score more. Any ways, coach understands the situation and I take it as an experience to improve on my form. Its not easy diving.

Tennis, tennis , tennis

Wow. I got my ass whooped in the tournament.. hahaha.. but its all good.
Probably the worst draw that i can have.. first round: #1 in my school. Consolation round of 16: #5 in the tournament. oh well. At least i managed to win at least 1 game in the whole match haha. Looking forward to much more improvements

Corrections of Pain.

Don't I deserve a father who treats me like his son?
Don't I deserve a mother who can ease my pains, and comfort me?
Don't I deserve a father who understands my problems? When I need to be held, he will be there to hug me?
Don't I deserve a life of parents who support me and not find every fault in me?
Where is God in these situations?
Why don't I have a mother who understands my concerns?
Why don't I have a father who supports my sports? Instead of shrugging his shoulders at me after a hard day in school.
Why do I have a father who daily preaches to me but never treats me with love and respect?
This is why I rebel, this is why I hate. This is when I slowly become a little mad on the inside, and my world is turned upside down.
Not even God wants to bother,
Not even they want to care.
No matter what anyone tells me, I'm not loved....
Not yet.
I'm not fully cherished...
Not yet.
This family isn't meant to last.
Even the brother will rebel, some day.
One day I will break free from their chains of darkness holding me down.
Someday I will discover that God didn't..doesn't exist in this household...
Maybe somewhere else.
One day I will know that they all secretly plotted to bring my doom, knowing my weaker sides.
Today i know that they laugh at my mistakes,
Today I know they provoke my past relationships and cut over the scars of a once healed wound.
It's no one but me, just my grief, my sorrows, and my will to live.
Nothing strengthens better than tears.
Don't I deserve a better life?
Don't I deserve to be loved as well?

Moderation of Silence

Nearly fell sick yesterday.
The Shack is a wierd book. I can hardly keep up with the complicated thoughts or opinions about God and Life. It makes sense sometimes, but how does the author make such a comparison?

Math is really getting in my nerves..

Yellow ball, Blue court, Clear Skies..

Time to go back to school after a 3 day weekend..
I've just been watching lots of TV, Playing a lot of games and doing some work.
One thing i have to mention is a teen sensation in the US Open: Oudin. She's 17 years old, and has made the quarterfinals. She's a true giant slayer. Standing at only 5''6' , she's remarkable good at ground strokes and can easily handle pounding shots from her opponents. Already, she has defeated top ranked players. Its inspiring to know that she believes in her self, and believes she can win. Its all about self perseverance and belief in yourself. Her tennis is awed, but her attitude is he weapon.

I've joined the USTA, United States Tennis Association. So i can play some tourneys and maybe win few matches. My first dive competition is this Wednesday... Gotta make a "Splash!"

Happy Birthday Ivan.

I Gotta a Feeling

Its a new month.
Tomorrow mom and Rachel are leaving for Canada. So its me, dad, kimbery and isaac in the house.
Next week is my first dive meet...im nervous. I just cant get the inward dive down. My favorite is the back-flip dive. =)
Time to party it up... maybe go out on a date or something. Who knows when Ill work up the courage to ask all over again. :/

Mountains

I don't get why people always find a way to quit out on me.
Do i carry a disease that people don't want to stick around me for long?
Its frustrating to think and know that friends are not always there for you.
Its saddening to know and feel the hurt that friends don't support you, even when you support them.
I want to do this. I am committed, but why aren't they? They say one thing then do another.

I am alone