I'm confused. So many thoughts running through my head.
So many emotions left unheard of. Too many lingering thoughts that poison my mind.
What am I doing?
How can I defeat this ... "thing" that keeps coming back.
Its feeds when I'm hungry
It sooths when I'm in need of soothing... but just for a while.
But it does not give me shelter when the rain pours.
It does not comfort when I am in pain.
It does not realize or care about my ambitions
It does not tell me I am good enough...
Instead, drags me deeper into something horrible that boils deep inside of me.
What can I do to save my self from total destruction?
Is it too late to turn to you?
Is it ever too late to run back into your arms?
Is it too late to get help from you in my weakest moment?
I need you. NOW.
More than ever. I have not been totally honest with myself and you.
I can fool every one else, but you are the mirror that reflects my soul.
With all my heart now,
I can say,
I need you.
I want you.
Don't leave me, because I know you never have,
You never did.
