Whats on my mind this night? I dont have answers to the questions life throws at me. There are somethings that i want, but i know i cant take. I believe it is easier to let go, than to hold on to something for a long time. That is me, but that is a part of me that is changing. Right now, it is not confusion, but rather a loss of a feeling that i once couldnt let go... but its not excatly clear to me what it is.
I just feel right now, that the world around me is changing so rapidly... its gonna take me a while to get up and run with the motion. Im struggling with my own confidence. I remember when i used to be so optimistic about the future and about life in general. To me, i have become less opinionated and more kept to myself. This is a safe refuge for me, to stay silent and not let any one bring me down. But who am i kidding? My future is determined by myself, and slowly by the help of God. Is religion a safe place for me to hide? I would rather seek my heaven in the arms of Jesus, who is love.
I havent had a good sleep for days now. I wish for one, just one dream. Do you somethimes feel like you're all alone, left in a state when no one cares for you... or maybe just want to run away? I feel that same. But the difference, is that i realized that running away from a problem prompts it to come back bigger. I'm pretty much in a phase... thats what im in. Im not stranger to love... im no stranger to sleepless nights...and im no stranger of thinking too much. Squeeze too hard, and it'll explode. So how do i hold?
